Hmm... pondering.. and pondering.. does quarter life crisis even exist? does one really knows he/she can live till 80?
Even we humans do not know the future, unless you doing doing some psychic stuff, we need to plan some years ahead...
SO! now at early 20+,i am trying to think of what career or job really excites me... not too sure thou... can we or rather ME doing something that doesn't excites me but keep me alive by giving me salary every month? or... doing something that may pay me less, but fulfil my capabilities?
it seems like mechanical stuff intrigues me... however this kind of job pay less unless one focus on specific part of the subject...
although i may seem to be sociable, deep down i know i am just an empty shell trying to fill it with memories...
interchangibility (is there even such a word?) is my strength.. but bad habit/memory is my weakness... even worse is when i repeat doing something wrong, which i dun even realise...
ok... crap... THINK of what going on ahead at the cross road... have i started crossing over to a lane of success or deadend? should i even think of changing lane? will there be a same ending point?
pondering....
2 comments:
dear are u dePRESSing again? tell u something.. if u dun spend the last few days/ hours till exam for ur revision.. den u have to start to depress..
like u say no one knows how long one will live.. a plan is a guide, a dream, a purpose, which drives us through life.. we dun know how long we can last in this life.. we just have to keep moving on.. time doesn't stop, doesn't rewind.. n no one knows when it will end.. every choice/result is a beginning, there's no deadend. wat is impt is to make do the best of the present situation. wat is impt is the present.. to be at ease with urself..
If u're confused with the big picture, look at the small details.. Smell the rain, look at the blue sky, a roof over ur head, clean water, paved grounds to walk on.. be satisfied with wat u have, and be happy:)
why do we even sleep? to get ready to wake up tmr..
not depressing la... jus thinking about focusing on something tat i do better and use it on my career, rather than dangling around somewhere that is not my strength. lol... and yea... im gg to smell the sea, look at the blue sky soon... GOGO BINTAN!
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