Quater-life crisis

Hmm... pondering.. and pondering.. does quarter life crisis even exist? does one really knows he/she can live till 80?

Even we humans do not know the future, unless you doing doing some psychic stuff, we need to plan some years ahead...

SO! now at early 20+,i am trying to think of what career or job really excites me... not too sure thou... can we or rather ME doing something that doesn't excites me but keep me alive by giving me salary every month? or... doing something that may pay me less, but fulfil my capabilities?

it seems like mechanical stuff intrigues me... however this kind of job pay less unless one focus on specific part of the subject...

although i may seem to be sociable, deep down i know i am just an empty shell trying to fill it with memories...

interchangibility (is there even such a word?) is my strength.. but bad habit/memory is my weakness... even worse is when i repeat doing something wrong, which i dun even realise...

ok... crap... THINK of what going on ahead at the cross road... have i started crossing over to a lane of success or deadend? should i even think of changing lane? will there be a same ending point?

pondering....

Excited but Scary

Getting my new Suzuki Hayate on sat 5th of sep.
Of cos will feel very excited.. cos first time getting a bike of my own.
thinking of some unethical conversaton to my dad... haha wanna ask him whether i can dun need to pay him back or not. Give the bike to me as a present...
but i guess i can't say this out from my mouth... my mind doesn't allow...
i feel gifts are given by the person becos of the thoughts... tat's why ppl say thoughts are more important than gifts?

ok.. why scary?
i have ride all the way back home from changi to woodlands=(
but dar say she may come along.. lol
she will be taking taxi and i follow the taxi home... so funny... i bet the uncle must be thinking that we're crazy...